Monday, July 30, 2007
let's talk bout happy stuff k?
ok the Empower U prog was like the BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE!
for the first time i actually let loose
for the first time i was me.
that really wild confident me
and it rocked man!
LOVED IT(:
the BEST PART was the board breaking.
i had this sense that i couldn't do it
and i was gettin really nervous when Jewel invited eunice and me to go break the board with her.
eunice and i were really getting high.
seriously, if you're not high jumping on a chair,
you'll NEVER be.
so we were like dancing on chairs,
lettin go
and it ROCKED.
yea but then one of the asisteam peeps said to get down and off the chair
and we joined Jewel anbd Trevin on the floor
(hey girl, i REALLY think u got a chance with him)
and i was hyperventilating over not being able break the board.
(guess who took a longer time to break it huh?)
yea, so guys moved up WADEVA.
and then Ryan(speaker) wanted me to go up and i was like
"HUH NO I CANNOT!!! nononononono!"
and he (thank god) sent me to Ju.
(like her lots really. great asisteam ldr)
yea Ju was REALLY great.
first time:
i got into state.
i saw Eunice1's name on my board.
all the negative things,
all my past hatred,
written there,
to smash it.
1,2,3 COMMIT.
nah. the board didn break.
second time:
Ju said
"look at this board.
your past failures.
your hatred.
your anger.
your sadness.
the other side is what you WANT to become.
you can do it.
COME LET'S GET INTO STATE!"
1,2,3, COMMIT.
nah. it didn break.
my first though was
"ok i'm such a loser.
i must be the only one who can't."
third time:
Ju could read my mind.
she said
"look at me. look at me.
you can."
the noise and music and people dancing disappeared.
and i committed.
and i DID IT OK.
my first thought was:
this HAS to be imagination.
John The Man was going all wild.
Ju was hopping up and down.
Ryan was cheering.
and me,
i had this expression of disbelief, shock, relief and happiness.
and in the instant the board shattered,
i saw Eunice1's face smashing into bits.
that STUPID glaring expression she had was gone.
GONE.
and i felt POWER.
i felt like NO ONE can stand in my way.
I DO WHATEVER I LIKE.
NO ONE, ESPECIALLY NOT THE EUNICES, ARE GONNA STOP ME.
NOT MY ENTIRE EX-CLIQUE.
NOT EUNICE2.
NOBODY.
CAN.
MAKE.
ME.
FEEL.
LIKE.
A.
LOSER.
ANYMORE.
i went to the final stage.
and everybody was dancing.
i tried lookin for people,
but couldn find anybody.
so WHO CARES MAN?!
i danced my ass off by myself.
AND IT TOTALLY ROCKED.
so i was lookin out for eunice choong
and moved to the left of the space in front.
and out of the blue,
JESSIE AND SIPING APPEARED.
and the 3 of us danced together and cheered.
and jumped and it rocked so hard.
and soon,
eunice came and mavis and wan'er and dominique
and all of us danced together!
all the 7114 GIRLS DANCED TOGETHER.
soon Brent(speaker) started spraying the punisher(watergun)
and all the siao guys from 7114
(namely, trevin, treven, timothy, walao plus plus)
wanted to get sprayed cos they were all sweaty...
and the punisher was near us and all the girls were trying to hide
but all the guys moved to our side
and they wanted to be sprayed.
so i started hiding behind timothy...
but THEN.
brent moved to the centre chair,
and timothy and the rest of guys moved
AND THERE WAS NO SHELTER!
so i started shouting at timothy
saying "you bustard! stop asking to be sprayed la! i'm being sprayed you idiot!"
and he turned and gave his wicked smile,
and i thonked his head as i thonked ben's
and he turned around and started wiping his sweat in my jacket
and i was wiggling and he was grabbing me up and he was literally wiping his sweat,
grabbing me,
lifting me up (about 40cm) all over the place.
and both of us were roughhousing for about a minute.
before i wiggled out of his arms(or rather, he let me off)
and he went back to getting sprayed.
so luckily he was standing back facing me and i started bending down under his shelter(ok this reminds me off Umbrella)
yea then Brent FINALLY stopped spraying
and the guys of 7114 danced behind,
while the girls from 7114 danced in front
and it felt really close you know...
very qin1...
and then Ben kicked my ass
and i turned to smile-glare at him
but i didn manage a good glare cos i was really high.
so i turned back continued jumping and swinging my arms around
then guess wat.
timothy kicked my ankles.
(hey its so unfair! they're bullying me!)
i turned around and showed him my fist.
and he back off one step
but continued dancing anyhow,
cos i was REALLY high.
(author's note: I JUST REMEBERED TESTS TMR!nehmind...)
ya and that was JUST the second day.
the last day rocked,
cos everybody hugged each other.
and timothy was damn scary la.
he like pulled me into a hug(???!!!!)
hugged Ben twice and Art once.
(Art rocks really.
good attitude,
but he smokes).
Jessie and i kept hugging...
so there was the Singapore Sling, the In-Out Hug, the A-shape hug and the Heart-to-heart hug.
damn fun man!
eunice and danced really great.
but i still think the second day's better than the last...
but oh well...
yea got a bit emo on the last day...
cried as i was sharing my experience with breaking up with my enitre clique,
and got lotsa people from 7114(guys btw) shaking my hand in consolment.
Walao and Joshua sebastian...
both from Fat Fathers...
i had no MOOD TO STUDY AT ALL TODAY K.
was still in the dancing mode.
yea and then mdm er mentioned bout not being able to take bad comments
and i glanced slyly at Eunice2...
gave her that evil look that i haven't given anybody
and i saw Eunice1 looking at me as i did that.
and eunice2 turned to me.
and she smiled the no-we-weren't-talking bout-you look.
and i smiled a really wry smile,
the evilest i got and turned away.
and as i remember smashing thru the board,
i felt that this was my turning point,
that i'm gonna smash thru everybody,
and the smile i had was my first step to conquering my fears bout the eunices.
and it felt great!
now i better concentrate on studying...
lest i fail...
then i'll REALLY HAVE NO MOOD.
ok the Empower U prog was like the BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE!
for the first time i actually let loose
for the first time i was me.
that really wild confident me
and it rocked man!
LOVED IT(:
the BEST PART was the board breaking.
i had this sense that i couldn't do it
and i was gettin really nervous when Jewel invited eunice and me to go break the board with her.
eunice and i were really getting high.
seriously, if you're not high jumping on a chair,
you'll NEVER be.
so we were like dancing on chairs,
lettin go
and it ROCKED.
yea but then one of the asisteam peeps said to get down and off the chair
and we joined Jewel anbd Trevin on the floor
(hey girl, i REALLY think u got a chance with him)
and i was hyperventilating over not being able break the board.
(guess who took a longer time to break it huh?)
yea, so guys moved up WADEVA.
and then Ryan(speaker) wanted me to go up and i was like
"HUH NO I CANNOT!!! nononononono!"
and he (thank god) sent me to Ju.
(like her lots really. great asisteam ldr)
yea Ju was REALLY great.
first time:
i got into state.
i saw Eunice1's name on my board.
all the negative things,
all my past hatred,
written there,
to smash it.
1,2,3 COMMIT.
nah. the board didn break.
second time:
Ju said
"look at this board.
your past failures.
your hatred.
your anger.
your sadness.
the other side is what you WANT to become.
you can do it.
COME LET'S GET INTO STATE!"
1,2,3, COMMIT.
nah. it didn break.
my first though was
"ok i'm such a loser.
i must be the only one who can't."
third time:
Ju could read my mind.
she said
"look at me. look at me.
you can."
the noise and music and people dancing disappeared.
and i committed.
and i DID IT OK.
my first thought was:
this HAS to be imagination.
John The Man was going all wild.
Ju was hopping up and down.
Ryan was cheering.
and me,
i had this expression of disbelief, shock, relief and happiness.
and in the instant the board shattered,
i saw Eunice1's face smashing into bits.
that STUPID glaring expression she had was gone.
GONE.
and i felt POWER.
i felt like NO ONE can stand in my way.
I DO WHATEVER I LIKE.
NO ONE, ESPECIALLY NOT THE EUNICES, ARE GONNA STOP ME.
NOT MY ENTIRE EX-CLIQUE.
NOT EUNICE2.
NOBODY.
CAN.
MAKE.
ME.
FEEL.
LIKE.
A.
LOSER.
ANYMORE.
i went to the final stage.
and everybody was dancing.
i tried lookin for people,
but couldn find anybody.
so WHO CARES MAN?!
i danced my ass off by myself.
AND IT TOTALLY ROCKED.
so i was lookin out for eunice choong
and moved to the left of the space in front.
and out of the blue,
JESSIE AND SIPING APPEARED.
and the 3 of us danced together and cheered.
and jumped and it rocked so hard.
and soon,
eunice came and mavis and wan'er and dominique
and all of us danced together!
all the 7114 GIRLS DANCED TOGETHER.
soon Brent(speaker) started spraying the punisher(watergun)
and all the siao guys from 7114
(namely, trevin, treven, timothy, walao plus plus)
wanted to get sprayed cos they were all sweaty...
and the punisher was near us and all the girls were trying to hide
but all the guys moved to our side
and they wanted to be sprayed.
so i started hiding behind timothy...
but THEN.
brent moved to the centre chair,
and timothy and the rest of guys moved
AND THERE WAS NO SHELTER!
so i started shouting at timothy
saying "you bustard! stop asking to be sprayed la! i'm being sprayed you idiot!"
and he turned and gave his wicked smile,
and i thonked his head as i thonked ben's
and he turned around and started wiping his sweat in my jacket
and i was wiggling and he was grabbing me up and he was literally wiping his sweat,
grabbing me,
lifting me up (about 40cm) all over the place.
and both of us were roughhousing for about a minute.
before i wiggled out of his arms(or rather, he let me off)
and he went back to getting sprayed.
so luckily he was standing back facing me and i started bending down under his shelter(ok this reminds me off Umbrella)
yea then Brent FINALLY stopped spraying
and the guys of 7114 danced behind,
while the girls from 7114 danced in front
and it felt really close you know...
very qin1...
and then Ben kicked my ass
and i turned to smile-glare at him
but i didn manage a good glare cos i was really high.
so i turned back continued jumping and swinging my arms around
then guess wat.
timothy kicked my ankles.
(hey its so unfair! they're bullying me!)
i turned around and showed him my fist.
and he back off one step
but continued dancing anyhow,
cos i was REALLY high.
(author's note: I JUST REMEBERED TESTS TMR!nehmind...)
ya and that was JUST the second day.
the last day rocked,
cos everybody hugged each other.
and timothy was damn scary la.
he like pulled me into a hug(???!!!!)
hugged Ben twice and Art once.
(Art rocks really.
good attitude,
but he smokes).
Jessie and i kept hugging...
so there was the Singapore Sling, the In-Out Hug, the A-shape hug and the Heart-to-heart hug.
damn fun man!
eunice and danced really great.
but i still think the second day's better than the last...
but oh well...
yea got a bit emo on the last day...
cried as i was sharing my experience with breaking up with my enitre clique,
and got lotsa people from 7114(guys btw) shaking my hand in consolment.
Walao and Joshua sebastian...
both from Fat Fathers...
i had no MOOD TO STUDY AT ALL TODAY K.
was still in the dancing mode.
yea and then mdm er mentioned bout not being able to take bad comments
and i glanced slyly at Eunice2...
gave her that evil look that i haven't given anybody
and i saw Eunice1 looking at me as i did that.
and eunice2 turned to me.
and she smiled the no-we-weren't-talking bout-you look.
and i smiled a really wry smile,
the evilest i got and turned away.
and as i remember smashing thru the board,
i felt that this was my turning point,
that i'm gonna smash thru everybody,
and the smile i had was my first step to conquering my fears bout the eunices.
and it felt great!
now i better concentrate on studying...
lest i fail...
then i'll REALLY HAVE NO MOOD.
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 7/30/2007
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